WHEN YOU ARE THE ONE WHO LIES CLOSE TO ME

[unversed]

THE CATCHALL ROMANCE MEME

HOW WE ROLL:
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> Someone tags you with one of the scenarios listed below.
> "AND THEN THEY PORKED."
> PORNPROFIT.

THE DEETS:

ONE ➔ CONFESSION: You've been admiring this person from afar, or you've been friends with them for a while. Either way, you've finally worked up the courage to admit how you feel!

TWO ➔ LOVE NOTES: Send your crush personalized little love notes for them to find! Flick them at your crush, or hide them in their shoes! Draw pictures of you two kissing! Heck, even an old fashioned YES/NO checkbox note will do. But you've gotta get their attention with your written prowess! Get creative! Maybe they'll come up to you and you'll find true love!

THREE ➔ KISSING BOOTH: You're working a kissing booth, for whatever reason. Charity, for your school, or just because you got conned into it. But will something special bloom from a chance encounter with a booth guest? Or will you just be embarrassed for life, and punch your friends for getting you into this later?

FOUR ➔ LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: You've been completely dazzled by this specific person! Your heart races, you have a cold sweat... whoa wtf is happening. You simply must get to know them! Maybe it was meant to be!

FIVE ➔ TSUNDERE STYLE: Sure, you like them, but you can't show that by being cute or cooking them lunch, hell no. You have to punch their shoulder and tug on their hair, obviously. W-what? They're complimenting you? Try not to blush too hard, or shove them too much.

SIX ➔ CAPULET & MONTAGUE STYLE: You're both already taken, or you simply can't be together for some reason! Your families hate each other, your friends hate each other, or you only see each other once a year! But you don't care, you have tonight, and romance is in the air. Maybe you can break away from what can't be, just for one night of fun and love.

SEVEN ➔ NEVER SAY NEVERO: You're super intent on making this person yours! You're willing to go to the extreme to garner their affections! How can they say no to extreme outbursts of love and other hard-to-ignore signs of affection? Though, it might be easier to just ask... but that's not big enough for your love!

EIGHT ➔ TLC: You suddenly feel blue, and you feel the need to be comforted. It's time for some sexual healing.

NINE ➔ SMOOTH OPERATOR: Flowers, candlelight, a bottle of champagne... it's time to woo your sweetheart!

TEN ➔ GRAB SOMEBODY SEXY TELL 'EM HEY: There's something about messing around in a public place, where anyone can walk in on you anytime. Try to keep quiet, the woman over in the bathroom stall next to you might hear you and your partner heating up and fooling around.

Comments

hnnnggh this is so late sob

[pools]

[every breath in is a gasp, every exhalation a moan as his fingers feel her out and she closes her eyes tight. her fingers dig into his shoulders and back and she nearly sobs out the raw sounds ripped from her throat. it feels like she's drowning, falling deeper and deeper into him with no way out.

that changes though, when he pushes in. her moan turns into a sob that ends in a groan, stamping down the urge to push his hand away, to quell the feeling of intrusion. she's determined to see it through, putting blind faith in the giggled rumors of the girls back home: the pain and discomfort is worth the pleasure in the end. she tucks her face in the crook of his neck, trying to even out her breathing and relax.]

[drought]

[ At that sound, at the feeling of her hiding her face against him, he stops: hand, body, almost his heart, and it still feels like it missed a beat or two. And for the first time today he's glad to have that experience with Kris; otherwise he might have panicked rather than hesitating. But she'd paused too, pressed her head against him in much the same way, so maybe it was something necessary, and not completely worrisome.

But he doesn't want to just wait it out; he'd rather help her through it, if possible. And so though he doesn't move or withdraw, he slides his thumb up to find her clit again because she had liked that, if her reactions were anything to go by. His body tenses, trying to be alert to every change in hers because he has no idea if this'll work.

In full honesty, his desire to help is not entirely altruistic. After all, if she can't handle a finger there's no way she'd be able to handle him. And while he'll stop if and when she needs him to, he'd rather pull out his fingernails than have to. ]

this is so not late

[pools]

[she does like it, which gets her to relax enough to open her muscles up a little more. she wants to tell him it's okay, that she can take it; she's no stranger when it comes to pain and they've come this far already, she doesn't want to back down.

she can't exactly get her voice to work, but she lifts her head and kisses him, propping up her legs and spreading them further to give him more room.]

i was going to make a pregnancy joke, then decided it was in poor taste

[drought]

[ Tia's a fighter, and Jori has first-hand knowledge of just how strong she is. But just because she can endure pain doesn't mean she should, and the last thing he wants to do is hurt her, especially now. But when she kisses him, he kisses her back fiercely, that primal instinct crashing back through him. She's open and vulnerable in front of him, and the desire to take her over and consume her makes his muscles tremble for a moment, even if the result he's aiming for is more metaphorical than it once was.

He wonders dimly if she has any idea what she's doing to him, because he's not all that certain himself. Instead he drops his head to kiss her shoulder and neck, wanting to feel and smell and touch rather than watch. And he's certainly taken her up on that invitation, hand moving faster and deeper as he presses his whole body against her. ]

lakjsdflajksdflasdf d y i n g

[pools]

[she could ask him the same thing if she could. everything she's feeling right now is new and she doesn't know what to do with them, and it's all she can do to just hold on to him and keep breathing.

in a way he probably has consumed her, back arching off the bed and crying out as her whole body trembles and spasms beneath him. it's almost like getting ripped apart, coming undone and getting melded back together again bit by bit. she wonders what the real thing would feel like if this is just from his hand alone.

and then it hits her that this is just from his hand alone and she hides her face in his neck again, face red from embarrassment.]

dying, btw, is shakespearean for orgasming. (not even kidding, nothing is safe)

[drought]

[ He doesn't know why she's hiding and, frankly, he's past caring enough to try and figure it out. He doesn't want to rush her - no, that's a lie, he totally wants to, he just knows that it isn't the right thing to do - but he has reached the point where self-control is basically self-imposed suffering. He pulls back just enough to see her, eyes darting automatically toward the side table because he is, in fact, smarter than he was at eighteen before looking back at her. ]

Tia.

[ His voice is rough and needy, enough so that it catches briefly on her name. He's Jori after all - any smoothness is long since gone, leaving him unsure how to ask what he wants and hoping she'll understand without him having to explain. ]

aksjdflasd I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT THAT

[pools]

[and it's his voice that gets her to look up again. he sounds so strained, and for a second she almost feels bad for not doing anything for him.]

Fuck, sorry.

[she takes a deep breath, closing her eyes briefly before kissing his shoulder and then his neck, wrapping her legs around his waist. she hopes that's enough of a hint to let him know she's ready, because she can't really come up with anything aside from "ready when you are" or "just put it in already fuck".]

this is what happens when it's late. everything is dirty

[drought]

[ He almost, almost just goes for it, but: smarter than he was at eighteen. And he is supposed to be the responsible one. So with a strangled noise he throws his arm out toward the table, just able to catch the drawer handle and pull it open. Judging by its bent and beaten up edges, the unopened box he retrieves has been kicking around in that drawer for a little while, but at least it exists. Sliding his thumb under the tab, he opens it with one hand, then the packet with his teeth, but at least the whole rigamarole of fetching and putting on a condom has only delayed him a moment.

He's hovers over her for a second more, then leans to do kiss her and finally pushes inside her with what is (to him, at least) agonizing slowness. Not that it matters too much, not when, slow or not, condom or not, her surrounding him is the best thing he's felt in ages, drawing a groan from his lips. ]

/face in hands

[pools]

[she's too wound up with anticipation, but she's pretty sure when she looks back on this she would probably end up laughing. in any other situation, Jori's displays of impatience is amusing and borderline attractive (if only because he's so easy-going all the time); which gets a small smile out of her when she watches him wrestle the condom on. the fact that it's her that's getting him like this makes her feel all kinds of warm and fuzzy, and she kisses him back almost sweetly-

but that all freezes when he pushes in. this is obviously way different from just his finger, stretching her out so much she didn't even think it was possible. she pulls her mouth away, gasping and trying not to clamp down too hard.]

Holy shit jesusfuckingchristoh god-

crying

[drought]

[ Once again he stops, this time his head hanging, eyes closed, teeth clenched. His hands close on the sheets of the bed, as if hoping that would help anchor him. He knew this wasn't going to be easy, and that she would bear the brunt of it, so he can't begrudge her. At the same time, he's just trying to catch his breath, fighting against another noise trying to escape his throat.

He carefully leans down, trying not to move too much, kissing her skin and feeling in control enough to make a soft, wordless sound of soothing. ]

Just tell me what you need.

i cant handle this i cant handle life

[pools]

You know what I - ahh... fuck - need.

[she can feel her muscles trembling a little, trying to accommodate, and it's raw and kind of painful but underneath all that is the fact that it's him. it's him and she knows if he could, he'd make it so she wouldn't have to feel pain. but she's told herself more than once that pain is just weakness leaving the body, and this is just another one of those times.

though not exactly, because she's starting to come to terms with the fact that Jori could really be her weakness. even if they're only doing it for the first time, it's still him and right at this moment she thinks she could love him.

it's dumb and stupid, and she's trying not to really look at him so he can't see her face. ]

I need you, okay? Just you.

i give up on ever knowing what's happening

[drought]

[ There. There it is, that something different he couldn't quite detect before. That time with Kris was basically a farewell, the accumulation of everything their relationship had been until that point. But this... this was something altogether different, and not just because they were in a bed instead of a hayloft. It was in Tia's question to him earlier - What else have you not told me? - because they're going past their usual boundaries, finding out new things. It's the newness that gets to him, and that one exchange in the car - fuck speed limits - because they may be rushing into this, jumping in feet first, but he's fine with that, he wants it. Even though he has no idea what exactly they're moving towards, he wants nothing else in this moment. ]

I can do that.

[ The strain in his voice is lessened slightly but by no means gone, but there is a warmth there that wasn't a moment ago. And slowly, carefully, he starts to move. ]

oh god if this doesnt make sense punt me k

[pools]

[she locks her ankles behind him when he moves, trying to keep her breathing in check and stifling the tiny pained gasps. she tells herself she wants this, she wants him, more than anything, and it scares her because the last time she wanted anything as much as this was years ago when she wanted to be a Guardian. she grips his arms tightly, pulling him closer even though it's too warm, too much, but she doesn't even care anymore because she'd rather go all the way or nowhere at all.

it feels good to have his arms around her, to be close enough to feel his heartbeat - it feels safe and secure, and if she tries, she can ignore the pain and the rawness. so she moves with him, lifting her hips in time with his.]

no this makes sense it's just that i am that naive part of jori going (russian)

[drought]

[ Now that he has all but abandoned self-control and is no longer wrestling with himself, he cannot believe how incredibly right this feels. His senses are filled with nothing but her, their bodies so tangled around each other that it seems there's no separation at all between them. He increases his tempo, as if hoping that could strengthen that connection and make it last even after the sex is over. Tia might be shying away from that knowledge, but Jori doesn't even give a thought to the possible implications of that.

The original plan might have been to overwhelm her, but it seemed she was drawing him down with her, and he can't find a reason to object. Hair falls into his face and he brushes it back behind his ear, taking the opportunity to cup her face with his hand and kiss her. ]

oh god me too i am just typing these while doped up on nyquil

[pools]

[there's a longer moan from her when he speeds up and she tries to lift her hips in time, though she misses a couple times. it doesn't even register in her mind anymore; she's too caught up in him to really notice anything else aside from this feeling good and wanting him to feel good too.

she laughs a little when his hair gets into his face, breathy chuckles interspersed between moans and whimpers, and she slips her fingers into his hair to hold them back. the kiss is welcome and she opens up to him easily, sighing into his mouth.]

jori...

[drought]

[ It is not a lightning bolt of a revelation, going screaming across his mind. It isn't an earthquake, shaking him to his core. He doesn't know what prompts it, whether it's the feeling of her body and her fingers in his hair, or all the little sounds she's making, or the simple taste of her. All he knows is that the thought is suddenly, quietly there, arriving like the morning sunlight slowly creeping across the floor or the quiet crack of a geode splitting open and revealing the sparkling quartz inside.

She's perfect.

It's definitely the first and probably the last time he'll think it, but for now it patiently sits, coloring every motion as he kisses her again, hand shifting back onto the bed to give him more support and leverage no matter how much he wants to be holding her instead. But the pressure in his abdomen is building up to a fever pitch, and he's not sure how much longer he can hold out. Until then, he's going to make sure that she's enjoying it, as best he can. ]

this boy klasjdlfas i am legit crying icant

[pools]

[it's unfortunate that she can't read minds, but then again, it might be a good thing because she wouldn't know what to make of his thought. she knows she's not the best person (that status will always be reserved for Mag and even Jori), nor is she the nicest person. all she really knows is the fact that she had been searching for something to fill that frustratingly empty corner of her heart her whole life, and right here in this moment, she thinks she might have found it. it's ridiculous and probably more than a little cliche, but it makes her smile and fills her with an almost crippling feeling because she knows that after this, she would never be able to lose him.

and oddly enough, she's okay with that.

the pain must have dulled down enough to pleasure because she can feel it again, gathering in her limbs and slowly pooling down to her stomach. she pulls her mouth away to take a deep breath, pressing a kiss to his cheek and she wants to say it, wants to say something stupid like "i love you" but she can't, not yet. she already told him she needed him and-]

Stay. [it's a little louder than a whisper, and maybe he might not be able to catch it all, but:]

Please stay.

i just cannot handle these two. i love them and cannot handle them

[drought]

[ Considering the vast majority of his attention is focused on her - it could be raining frogs outside and he wouldn't know - he does manage to hear that. There is, admittedly, a part of him that is confused at first, wondering if she truly thinks there's any way that he's going to just stop and walk away right now. Thankfully he realizes before he says something stupid, and he has to smile, the sentiment something else warm and comfortable that's settling into his chest.

He ducks his head to put his mouth by her ear. ] Always.

[ He takes her hand in his and puts it against his chest, over his racing heart, rhythm faltering slightly before he picks it up again. ] It's all yours anyway.

[ The forever kind indeed. ]

i just want to dive under my bedsheets and weep forever

[pools]

[she's not sure if she's really that ridiculously sentimental, but that's what ultimately sends her over. it hits her a lot harder than the first time and she sobs out moans over and over, muscles shaking so deep she can feel the tremors in her bones. her eyes sting and her vision goes blurry and maybe she's crying, but she grips his hand tight, gasping for breath.]

Just... just take it. Everything. I just-

[she throws an arm over her eyes briefly, feeling something gut-wrenching that she thinks is probably love. she clings to him like a buoy, like he's the only anchor to her sanity.]

You have no idea... no idea what you're doing to me.

gpoy

[drought]

[ This time when she goes he follows, unable to stop himself even if he wanted to. This time he barely hears her, at least at first, her words almost lost in his moan and one last burst of heat until tensed muscles suddenly relax. He collapses, just managing to catch himself on a forearm instead of crashing into her. Concentrating on breathing more than anything else, he presses a quiet kiss to her cheek as he slowly regroups himself within his slowly cooling skin.

What he's doing to her? No, he's not entirely sure. How did they get here in the first place? It didn't really start when she kissed him so suddenly and he found out he really did like it even if it had surprised him. After all, he'd thought about it before, even though he'd tried not to - it didn't seem like the right thing to do, even if that meant he'd apparently been projecting no interest in the subject at all. If anything, he'd been more surprised by Tia's agreement... though if she'd been interested she might've had to hit him with a rock for him to notice.

He casts his mind back over the little things he'd thought and felt since this whole thing started, and in his own way he works up to the same thing she realized: after this, he can't lose her. He'd meant it before, about his heart being hers, but in some ways he hadn't realized just how true it was. He smiles, warm, lazy, content, genuine, amused. ]

Think I'm falling in love with you. Does that count?

[pools]

[she watches him, unable to look away as he reaches the end. she takes in his expression, memorizing his face and filing it away in a safe corner of her mind because she has no idea when she'd get to see it again. if there is a next time at all. seeing him so unguarded makes something in her chest clench and she twines her hands through his hair again, gently twirling the strands around her fingers.

still, she wasn't expecting him to say that (which is kind of silly, considering what he said earlier). a flurry of emotions rush past: surprise and panic that slowly simmers down to acknowledgement, resignation, to cool into something softer - warm and bittersweet.]

Yes... it does.

[her hands trail down, cupping his face gently. she has so many feelings that she doesn't know what to do with and they all revolve around him. she doesn't know if this is really okay, if this will work if they do go through with it, but she's always done things her own way. it doesn't hurt to try, right? to try and let someone in. to feel this heart-wrenching feeling that both hurts and fills her with warmth at the same time.]

I think I might be too.

[drought]

[ Jori's never been one to push people away, and in some ways he knows that it's a bad thing, that it leaves him more vulnerable. But how could anyone expect him not to love his family, to adore Hikari, to enjoy his friends? Ignoring all that seems like such a sad, lonely thing to do, one that Jori's quite sure he couldn't handle anyway.

Still, Tia is a special case and he knows it, because every time Mag is in danger they will both be in danger, and that vulnerability will be right there, every single time, not just a distant possibility. But in some ways he thinks that it will be easier, because he won't have to leave, because they'll understand what obligations the other has.

As long as they don't forget what their duty - the whole reason (he thinks at times) for his existence - is, then he can't see how this is wrong. Risky, yes. Potentially dumb, yes. But not wrong. ]

I'm not sorry if that's what I'm "doing to you".

[ In a minute he'll have to get up, but for right now he just wants to lie here and bask in the afterglow, to feel her hands on him, her hip under his hand, and all the other places skin touches skin. ]

not late not late

[pools]

Like you're ever sorry for anything.

[it's less of a jab and more teasing, and as much as she wants, she can't hide the small smile from her face. despite the risk and danger involved, the feeling of being cared and accepted drowns out the fear. because even with their differences, she needs him; she needs him to stay, to be her anchor because as much as she claims, she can't protect Mag on her own. not as well as Jori can.

but more than that, she needs him because he's one of the only few people who can tolerate her. and possibly the only person to actually show the fact that he really cares.]

<3

[drought]

That's cause I usually don't have anything to be sorry for.

[ He tries not to, at least. And for that reason her smile is the last reassurance he needs that this really isn't something he'll have to apologize for. No matter what happens or how things turn out, he just doesn't want to have any regrets. Not about this.

It's with a small sound of protest that he moves off the bed, just enough to throw out the condom before something unfortunate happens. By the way, Tia, enjoy that sight of his back and the full extent of his tattoos, because they really do go from wrist to ankle.

When he returns to the bed he leans over to kiss her, just because he wants to, because the novelty of it hasn't worn off and the simple fact that he can makes him happy in a way that he couldn't describe if you gave him a year. ]

[pools]

[she does enjoy the display, actually, and the sight makes a small tendril of warmth unfurl deep in her stomach; it makes her want to touch and trace every line and curve and leave her own marks on his skin.

she kisses him back when he leans over, but she keeps it brief and instead sits up. she turns around, pulling her hair over one shoulder and exposing her back, revealing her own markings. where Jori's is angles and geometric shapes, hers is all fluid and wavy: red lines curving away from a central circle just below her shoulder blades, stretching out over her skin like a soft caress. the longest stop just at the top of her shoulders and her lower back, with shorter ones interspersed between.]